Today has been a horrible day. I mean one of those where you just want to hide under the covers and forget the world exist, that is after you finish screaming into the pillow. Today, I didn't even wish to be able to go to sleep and wake up to tomorrow because I couldn't trust it would really be any better.
It's not really one thing that happened. Basically, Zoey and I both woke up on the wrong side of the bed and it just didn't get better. The daughter whines, the dog poops in the house, the daughter does exactly what I told her not to, just one of those terrible horrible no good very bad days where nothing seems to go right. Sigh. And that is the worst.
And that is all the negativity I'm going to write because I wouldn't even talk about my bad day if it didn't have a silver lining. Because it is a day like this that I really need my Weekly Gratitude--the serious one where I am thankful for being exactly who I am.
I am thankful that I am a stay-at-home mom so it is me that has to deal with Zoey (and myself) when bad moods strike and not anyone else. I am also glad because that means I can take a nap when I'm at my wits end.
I am thankful that we had Eli (the dog) for companionship and love him even though he poops in the house. He has been such a learning experience for all of us, especially Zoey and though he drives me crazy sometimes (let's face it, they all do) I am still so glad we have our new four-legged friend.
I am thankful for my computer and awesome blogging/Facebook world that I can slip away into where I get to hear about some other's struggles and successes and forget about my aggravations for a while.
I am thankful that being aggravated drives me to get things done. For example, today I finished the laundry, did the dishes, picked up around the house and cooked a delicious homemade spaghetti sauce.
This one is number 1! This is the best of the best of the best...I am thankful for my husband! Stephen is such a wonderful husband and Daddy! As soon as he got home he witnessed how bad of a day I had and sympathized. I hate it when he comes home to me in a bad mood because he just got finished spending a hard day at work and I want home to be an oasis for him, but no one is perfect.
The best part...after dinner Stephen took Zoey and Eli out for a walk. This left me home ALONE! Can you believe it! Home all by my lonesome, just me, my thoughts and my computer. Wow, it's so nice. They won't be gone long, but I am so unbelievable thankful for his act of kindness that I want to tell the whole world!
See, I told you there'd be a silver lining! Everyone has bad days, where nothing seems to go right and everything seems ten time worse than it really is. Well, that is my day, but through it I can focus on all the wonderful things that are happening in my life. I am so thankful for Zoey and Stephen that it makes my heart feel like it might explode. So there it is...the best and the worst.
*********Updated 6/16/11 (The Day After)
The most wonderful thing was yet to come! Last night I was lying in bed and couldn't get to sleep. And then it started pouring rain! A blessing indeed since it hasn't rained here in several weeks. It was like the rain and the rolling thunder washed away all of my frustration, not like I got over it, but like it was never there to begin with. God really is amazing!!! And this morning (the day after) I feel refreshed! I suppose sometimes it takes reaching the worst of your emotions and frustrations to be able to see the best. Besides, when do you see a rainbow? After it rains of course! The same goes for our lives...you have to get through the storm to see the rainbow!