The thing that gets me with this pregnancy is that there was never a baby. I had a blighted ovum, which means that a baby never formed or was ever going to form in the embryonic sac. With my first two miscarriages I had a peace that the babies, though they died in the womb, were in heaven helping others, seeing God and waiting for us to meet them. (I recommend you read "Heaven is For Real" by Todd Burpo if you haven't already.) However, with this miscarriage, I don't know if that thought is still true. I want to believe that there is some presence for the child I'll never have, but it seems unlikely.
It really questions at what point does a baby truly become a life. Most Christians say it is at the point of conception. If that is the case then there is a presence there, even if there was never a baby formed. However, that is difficult to wrap my head around. There was no heartbeat to indicate life, so is it possible that life indeed exist?
More likely, life begins as the heart begins to pump blood, bringing the soul to life. For most pregnancies that is very early on, within two to three weeks after conception. In other words, the baby's heart would beat possibly before you even realized you were pregnant. Still I can't help but wonder, what does that mean for this particular pregnancy complication?
I know everything happens for a reason. I have felt since the first miscarriage that I am meant to share these experiences and help others who go through similar struggles. I have more to say on this subject, but for right now, I am simply enjoying the relief that it is over.
What are you opinions on when a life is formed?